The Blahs

For the next few posts I thought I'd share some of the ups and downs of church planting with you.

For us, starting Journey Church has been a series of crazy emotions. Sometimes I feel like a cork in a lake on a windy day. When I was a kid every now and then we would go fishing just off the Arkansas River at this park where you could fish from the bank. I remember sitting on the bank watching my cork bob up and down in the water for hours at a time. When I fell asleep after a long day of fishing I would see that cork bobbing up and down in the water through out the night.

Sometimes, like today, it seems like I'm helplessly sitting on the water not doing much of anything at all. Just waiting. Don't get me wrong, there's lots of activity going on. There are meetings and plans and planning meetings. There are times of hanging out with people who may or may not be part of what we are doing in launching this church. But there are days like to day where I just feel like....we may go home with no fish tonight.

What if we do all this work to connect with people who don't go to church and at the end of the day there is nothing to show for it? I don't think that will happen but its those kinds of things that haunt my dreams at night. Its those endless hours of waiting for what might happen and might not that keep me restless. It's days like this one that make me want to go to sleep on the bank and wake up and try again tomorrow.

What would good days be like if we had no bad ones though? They would be very hard to measure and even harder to appreciate. Here's to good days ahead. As for today I think I will watch my cork just a bit longer. Then maybe I'll take a long nap, just to see what happens when I wake up.